Jesus Whom I Pierced
2005-03-30 23:49
I write this to my brothers and sisters, those who belong to Christ Jesus, recalling the dawn of the day, March 30, 1955, 50 years ago from now, when I saw Jesus, whom I pierced, and wept bitterly having my heart wrung.
Until Jesus let me know at dawn of the day, I had thought that Judas Iscariot alone had betrayed Jesus. Until Jesus let me know the fact at the day, I had thought that Jews and the Roman soldiers had crucified Jesus.
At that time, he clearly said, "Do you think Judas Iscariot betrayed me for thirty silver coins? Do you think Jews and the Roman soldiers crucified me? You and all the people on earth rushed at me and crucified me."
"But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities..." (Isaiah 53:5). O! We all are the wretches and bitches who pierced him!
I had not known about the relationship between the Lord Jesus and me until that time. At that time, I clearly saw a filthy and wicked appearance of myself, standing before the Lord Jesus. Without knowing this fact, I had tried to obtain salvation, calling on the name of God the Father and the name of the Lord Jesus. Having known the fact, I found how I was filthy and hateful, and so I was at a loss what to do.
I cried out in grief, "Now I know. Why didn't you let me know earlier? Now it is natural and rightful for me to be thrown into hell as everlasting punishment. Such a man like me has called God my Father and Jesus my Lord. How dishonorable to God it has been?"
But then, I found the goodness and mercy of God. Holding me deep in his arms with great love, He said, "You are saved." Then I cried out, "I can't be, I can't be." But I was captured by His love and could not escape from it.
I could not help surrendering to His love and said, "And then please wait, the last place in Your kingdom ..." Before I finished my words, He said, "Yes, the last place is yours." I stood up and danced with tears of joy.
The 50 years of my pilgrimage have been passed from that time to dawn of today, when I am writing this. But now I don't look better than I did at that time, still being dressed in filthy clothes and having an abominable appearance.
However, the one thing that I know is how great His love is and that He will never count my filthiness and abominableness against me if I love everyone as He loves me like this. Therefore, I know that I can enter the kingdom of His love not with my own righteousness, but only with God's good and merciful love.
The Lord spoke before by his prophet concerning this truth, "And I will pour out on the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem a spirit of grace and supplication. They will look on me, the one they have pierced, and they will mourn for him as one mourns for an only child, and grieve bitterly for him as one grieves for a firstborn son. On that day the weeping in Jerusalem will be great, like the weeping of Hadad Rimmon in the plain of Megiddo. The land will mourn, each clan by itself, with their wives by themselves: the clan of the house of David and their wives, the clan of the house of Nathan and their wives, the clan of the house of Levi and their wives, the clan of Shimei and their wives, and all the rest of the clans and their wives." (Zechariah 12:10-14).
It is written in another version of the Bible, "And I will pour on the house of David and on the inhabitants of Jerusalem the Spirit of grace and supplication; then they will look on Me whom they pierced. Yes, they will mourn for Him as one mourns for his only son, and grieve for Him as one grieves for a firstborn." (Zechariah 12:10).
He also spoke by his apostle about it, "Look, he is coming with the clouds, and every eye will see him, even those who pierced him; and all the peoples of the earth will mourn because of him. So shall it be! Amen." (Revelation 1:7).
Therefore, the true salvation is accomplished in the repentance and grief of those who pierced Jesus. "Transgressions" are committed in body, "sin" is committed in heart, and "the iniquity of sin" is that I pierced Jesus. It is written, "I acknowledged my sin to You, And my iniquity I have not hidden. I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD," And You forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah." (Psalms 32:5).
Therefore, the salvation is accomplished only through the love of God in those who are contrite and mourn. The will of God is that His love is accomplished in Christ Jesus. It is written, "Jesus said, 'Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing...'" (Luke 23:34).
Only those who know they themselves pierced Jesus can be contrite and mourn, and clearly see the Lord Jesus whom they pierced, and be nestled in his arms. However, those who say they did not pierce Jesus cannot see Jesus whom they pierced because they are nearsighted and blind. They cannot be cleansed from the iniquity of their old sins.
Therefore, the way to enter the inner sanctuary behind the curtain is opened only for those whose curtain is torn. Thank you, Lord. At dawn of March 30, 2005.
The Last Brother, Kim Yun-gu.
Until Jesus let me know at dawn of the day, I had thought that Judas Iscariot alone had betrayed Jesus. Until Jesus let me know the fact at the day, I had thought that Jews and the Roman soldiers had crucified Jesus.
At that time, he clearly said, "Do you think Judas Iscariot betrayed me for thirty silver coins? Do you think Jews and the Roman soldiers crucified me? You and all the people on earth rushed at me and crucified me."
"But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities..." (Isaiah 53:5). O! We all are the wretches and bitches who pierced him!
I had not known about the relationship between the Lord Jesus and me until that time. At that time, I clearly saw a filthy and wicked appearance of myself, standing before the Lord Jesus. Without knowing this fact, I had tried to obtain salvation, calling on the name of God the Father and the name of the Lord Jesus. Having known the fact, I found how I was filthy and hateful, and so I was at a loss what to do.
I cried out in grief, "Now I know. Why didn't you let me know earlier? Now it is natural and rightful for me to be thrown into hell as everlasting punishment. Such a man like me has called God my Father and Jesus my Lord. How dishonorable to God it has been?"
But then, I found the goodness and mercy of God. Holding me deep in his arms with great love, He said, "You are saved." Then I cried out, "I can't be, I can't be." But I was captured by His love and could not escape from it.
I could not help surrendering to His love and said, "And then please wait, the last place in Your kingdom ..." Before I finished my words, He said, "Yes, the last place is yours." I stood up and danced with tears of joy.
The 50 years of my pilgrimage have been passed from that time to dawn of today, when I am writing this. But now I don't look better than I did at that time, still being dressed in filthy clothes and having an abominable appearance.
However, the one thing that I know is how great His love is and that He will never count my filthiness and abominableness against me if I love everyone as He loves me like this. Therefore, I know that I can enter the kingdom of His love not with my own righteousness, but only with God's good and merciful love.
The Lord spoke before by his prophet concerning this truth, "And I will pour out on the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem a spirit of grace and supplication. They will look on me, the one they have pierced, and they will mourn for him as one mourns for an only child, and grieve bitterly for him as one grieves for a firstborn son. On that day the weeping in Jerusalem will be great, like the weeping of Hadad Rimmon in the plain of Megiddo. The land will mourn, each clan by itself, with their wives by themselves: the clan of the house of David and their wives, the clan of the house of Nathan and their wives, the clan of the house of Levi and their wives, the clan of Shimei and their wives, and all the rest of the clans and their wives." (Zechariah 12:10-14).
It is written in another version of the Bible, "And I will pour on the house of David and on the inhabitants of Jerusalem the Spirit of grace and supplication; then they will look on Me whom they pierced. Yes, they will mourn for Him as one mourns for his only son, and grieve for Him as one grieves for a firstborn." (Zechariah 12:10).
He also spoke by his apostle about it, "Look, he is coming with the clouds, and every eye will see him, even those who pierced him; and all the peoples of the earth will mourn because of him. So shall it be! Amen." (Revelation 1:7).
Therefore, the true salvation is accomplished in the repentance and grief of those who pierced Jesus. "Transgressions" are committed in body, "sin" is committed in heart, and "the iniquity of sin" is that I pierced Jesus. It is written, "I acknowledged my sin to You, And my iniquity I have not hidden. I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD," And You forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah." (Psalms 32:5).
Therefore, the salvation is accomplished only through the love of God in those who are contrite and mourn. The will of God is that His love is accomplished in Christ Jesus. It is written, "Jesus said, 'Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing...'" (Luke 23:34).
Only those who know they themselves pierced Jesus can be contrite and mourn, and clearly see the Lord Jesus whom they pierced, and be nestled in his arms. However, those who say they did not pierce Jesus cannot see Jesus whom they pierced because they are nearsighted and blind. They cannot be cleansed from the iniquity of their old sins.
Therefore, the way to enter the inner sanctuary behind the curtain is opened only for those whose curtain is torn. Thank you, Lord. At dawn of March 30, 2005.
The Last Brother, Kim Yun-gu.
